Attempts on larger objects

Messed around with pk quite a lot yesterday. Before going to sleep, I tried to get a feeling of a coin in the dark. I could barely see the coin and couldn't get a feeling of it. Which probably means that I have developed another mindblock: "I can't move objects that I can't see". Possibly because of yesterday's pk practice, I have a slight headache today.

Today morning I tried pk on the kitchen door again. This time I didn't worry about hitting myself with the door. I quickly started feeling like the psi in my head was in resonance with the psi of the door. I couldn't see it move much, but when I looked at the shopping bags hanging from the door knob, I noticed that they started swinging, when I got the feeling of the door moving. So, the door could have actually moved slightly.

Cool, I actually saw my balcony door moving when I tried to move it. At first I could feel it move, but couldn't see it moving. Then I managed to suppress my beliefs and preconceptions about psychokinesis for about a second. At the same time, the door moved towards me for about 1 cm. It could've been just a coincidence with the wind though. However, manipulating with the wind is also a way of telekinesis. =P Have to practice some more in order to verify that it was more than just a coincidence though.

It's weird how it seems easier to get a feeling of a large object than a small one. I often find it difficult to focus on a small coin lying on the table, as my focus tends to shift to the background and I start to feel the table instead of the coin.

One more thing: I've grown so tired of waterpicking that I got almost sick of it yesterday. I started feeling really uncomfortable, wanting to practice on anything but a toothpick on water.. =/

Ow man, I'm quite nervous about the health check stuff for the compulsory military enlistment. I was afraid that they would check my eyes - they did and I couldn't see nothing at that moment. I can sometimes see perfectly, while sometimes I can't even recognize my friends when they walk by.

While in the waiting room, I began to feel the whole room around me. I felt it all bending and wobbling slightly. The bending and wobbling feeling is what has put me thinking that bending objects can't be that difficult - after all, I can feel objects doing it all the time (on a small scale though).

XD After having suppressed my beliefs about pk, my ego must have taken its revenge. I quickly got depressed, lost all confidence and wrote this post (should be the last one on the page). While going to the gym, I noticed the thought loops that had formed in my mind and broke loose from the ego trap again to see how wrong I was. So, be prepared for falling, when you're cutting the branch you're sitting on.