Cat

The cat sometimes does strange things.

The air humidifier had run out of water and had switched off. Cat switched it back on, then ran into the other room and switched on the PC.

Two very improbable events in a row.

Protest: Great Day

Woke tired but smiley. Wished a great day to friends on a couple of Discord servers.

On my way to the office I saw a gang of youngsters protesting on the streets. I walked up to them and turned around to see what was written on their posters, for I was curious which of the problems . One of the posters said "Smile!", and the other said "You will have a great day today!" This escalated my smile into a surprise-happy laughter.

Today was an odd day. Very hectic. I did not even have the time to properly check and respond the messages from colleagues. Everything just kept piling up while I was occupied with one thing, then another, and so on. Thought I would finish with one more thing before going home but then remembered that I had promised to mom I would assist her with her visit to the construction store. Decided to take a bus home, to make up for staying late at work. While waiting for the bus, uncle called and I had to start making phone calls to organize something. Okay, got home while being on the phone at the same time. Mom was also on a phone call at the same time, and we both finished the calls at the same time. Eventually we get to the construction store. At the store, both our phones start ringing at roughly the same time. Once we got out of the store, we burst out laughing.

Relaxing the brain

Slept for a couple of hours yesterday evening. Went to bed late, and planned on waking early. Didn't fall asleep normally, so I took a pose to lay in motionlessly. Relaxed the muscles and the mind. Relaxed the brain more thoroughly than I've done for a long time. No dreams, just a nice state of relaxation. Woke feeling more refreshed. Quite productive workday and even felt like doing some sports.

Edit: I found two methods that seemed effective for relaxing the brain. At first I imagined a carefree brain of a toddler that isn't required to remember anything, doesn't have to calculate anything, nor does it have anything to worry about. While this worked, I also tried humming in my mind. Used syllables from the Aum mantra: "AaaAAa" and "MmmMMMm". This was a bit more difficult to use for relaxation because of a preconception that I had - doing something in the mind means effort, and thus, tension.

There was supposed to be a sauna this evening. At first I said I wasn't going. Then I suddenly felt like I would still have to go (an image of a nice evening with sunset popped in my mind). Went through a shop, bought stuff (snacks and drinks). It cost 7. No, thanks to a customer card I got a discount so that the price dropped to 6.66. Started paying more attention to what's going on around me, hoping to spot something of significance. Lost a bit of chocolate from the ice cream. Later an old lady walked past, eating ice cream like a pro. For all these years, I've been eating ice cream wrong =D. A nice walk through the parks, with a nice sunset view. No sauna because it wasn't booked properly. Lovely evening, definitely worth it.

Ghost-tap

Awkward bus trips.

Today I accidentally took bus 11 instead of 1. In addition to being the wrong bus, it missed a stop and just stopped at a random corner. I wasn't the only one confused. Shrugged, and decided to walk home - had been feeling tired and it was a nice and quiet evening. While crossing a bridge, I was worried that there was someone behind me and wanted to get past me. I walked too fast for them to get past, and too slow for them to walk with ease. Checked the shadows but didn't spot anyone behind me. Eventually stopped and looked over my left shoulder (typically I look over my right shoulder). At that moment, I felt a tap on my right shoulder. I turned around to verify that there was nobody there .. no footsteps, nothing. The tap on the shoulder was not a normal tap. It felt like a highly localized spasm or something - as if something tapped through the skin, right on the nerves.

Smile :)

A geist that made me smile.

Happened to be listening to music and writing a test report, when I noticed a dust smiley in a corner of the image sensor. At the same time, the vocals said "Still had a smile on my face". Koven - Breathing me in, by the way.

Santa brought a book "101 sacred places in Estonia". Nice. I'm always pleasantly surprised when I get anything even slightly witchy from the skeptical grandfather.

Signals

Sat and waited today morning, as I didn't want breakfast. Sat and waited. And stared .. at the old and heavy cupboard in the living room. The cat also sat and waited at the other end of the room and stared .. at me.

At some moment, the cupboard made a snapping sound. Then another object closer to me also made a snapping sound. The cat looked confused and a bit spooked. He looked at the cupboard, then at me, then at the other object and then at me again. This he repeated for a few times, then left the room.

A strange day. Didn't get much work done because the whole day was packed with meetings. Then somewhere in between the meetings, I filled the customs declaration and payed the VAT for the headset that I ordered. A bit frustrated at how much it cost me in total:

• headset ~360 USD
• EEG firmware ~300 USD
• transport ~90 USD
• 20% VAT ~150 USD

~900 USD? Wat.

Oh well. Another viewpoint: I'll receive it tomorrow and it's going to be worth every cent in hobby research and gamedev. This means the more it costs, the more it's worth ;-)

That was out of topic.

Today I noticed an exceptionally high sensitivity to subconscious signals. Moved my chair and as I heard the sound, I couldn't help but feel it was unwelcome. It turned out there was a TV interview with a colleague in the hall just around the corner. Then at some moment I suddenly remembered I had booked a thesis meeting with a student and he should've arrived by then. Hey'd him on Skype, asking where he was. Apparently he had just arrived through the front door. Thought of calling the other student as well, who had a related thesis work. Err.. almost bumped into him on the stairs.

While standing and waiting for a bus in the evening, I recognized a colleague seeing me from the distance without me seeing him. Wondered about it, when I saw him walking across the parking lot. It's a nice and stormy evening. Today he said "Fantastic weather," with 100% irony. I responded "Indeed," with full sincerity.

Recently I've been utilizing waiting for practising concentration and clarity of mind. I would picture myself standing like a warrior, who (and whose mind) is not swayed by anything. I would strictly follow rules (including those set by myself) just because I can, and find it as a way to discipline my mind. I used to practice this before the army training, but it's even a bit easier after that.

Lights flickered 3 times, with clicks of UPS triggering.

Vagabond

Joined in to help with the cutting sea buckthorn bushes for the weekend. Being in the nature felt so good. There was an interesting dude there, also helping with pruning the bushes and collecting berries. As it turned out, he has been living out of the system for years. He travels around the world alone and helps people here and there. Just recently he had come from Italy back to Estonia without money, without a tent, coat, sleeping bag or anything ..

I seriously envy people who are able to do that. It needs quite a confidence in one's personal power to manifest everything they need. Awesome.

Visualize your own body-mind

Cool synchronicity recently.

Mom left to Tallinn yesterday. She missed the chance to say goodbye, so a random encounter occurred (we met at the bus station).

Some more 888 and 11:11 as well.

Two nights ago something startled me. I was trying to meditate in a half-dream state, when suddenly a colleague popped up in front of me and poked my 3rd eye with a toggle type push-button switch.

Today I re-realized an old visualization. Not exactly visualizing the body-mind of a Buddha, but visualizing the body-mind of myself (the way I imagine myself in the future). This had some cool effects: I became a lot more calm, I did not have to suppress thoughts - mind became a lot quieter on its own, it was easier to project unconditional love and the body became lighter. Concentration also became somewhat easier and I started seeing the light again.

In general, those were tough 2 weeks. Yesterday I had time again to sleep properly.

There's one idea that I've wanted to post, but so far I've forgotten to. A while ago it occurred to me that perhaps the intensity and psi flow has not reduced, perhaps the only thing that can produce the impression of regress is what we focus on. With more intense psi flow, it's also easier to lose the way in our self-generated maze (because it seems so much more real).

Happy

Massive 11:11 and 666 synchronicity yesterday. 11:11 showed up in at least 4 different places (e-mails, bug tracking software, file modification dates) and right when it got me to smile, then 666 popped up (due to having written more code, a breakpoint had shifted to that line).

For the past couple of nights, I've been having very vivid and lucid dreams .. and rather clear recall. Last night I was a bit surprised, how well I managed to maintain my form in a foreign environment.

A beautiful day today. Spent quite some time waiting .. which I used for concentration practice and for radiating unconditional love. Mother came home for a couple of weeks today. This also made me very happy.

Some more food experiments

Yesterday evening I ate the following:

• An orange
• Coconut (was starting to dry up)
• Banana
• Pear juice (without added sugars or preservatives .. though, several weeks old and fungus was growing on it)
• A champignon

Today morning kidneys were aching. This may be due to any of the following reasons:

• That pear juice with fungus.
• Not enough juice or water yesterday.
• Maybe ate too late?
• "Normal" lunch yesterday.
• Read a lot of inspiring text, which caused the movement of energy.
• Edit: Stomach flu, which has been pretty popular these days.

Today morning I snacked the following:

• A champignon
• Banana
• A piece of cucumber

For lunch I ate the following:

• Boiled buckwheat
• Brown Himalayan salt
• Pan salt
• Salad
• A tomato
• Two champignons
• Parsley
• Pan salt
• Pepper

Although it's not raw, boiled buckwheat tasted very good.

Angry dog

Focused on the stomach, with the intent to digest faster so that I could sleep properly, without rolling around on a full stomach. Eating late is a bad habit. Perhaps I should take up a sport, instead. Anyway, the whole night went into focusing on the stomach. Occasionally I lost consciousness and fell asleep, then woke up again and restored the focus.

One of the colleagues was unhappy because he had all his data on a mirrored drive. One of the drives burned, seriously damaging the graphics card as well as the other drive. He lost all his valuable data. A creepy nightmare of really low probability.

While walking home, I sensed a dog having something against me. Looked in that direction and saw a lady walking two dogs, about 10 meters from me. One of the dogs was just angry at me for no apparent reason. The other dog looked annoyed about the first one "Sigh, there it goes again .." *looks away*
Once the dog reached the proximity of 1.5 meters, it started barking at me.

Browsed through the files on the old laptop, looking for a specific screenshot for a presentation. Eventually found it. The file name was: "Screenshot - 10112013 - 11:11:11 AM.png" On the screenshot, there are a few more 11s. Haven't seen the 11:11 phenomena for a while now.

U sure u not sleepy?

It's been rather warm .. and slippery recently. Tried the good old spiky construct for making boots anti-slip. If it worked, it wasn't too effective.

Subconscious came up with something pretty efficient. The feeling of having a good grip, perhaps with a slight feeling of pull towards the ice surface. Also, the posture was pushed upright and more perpendicular to the ground. Pretty cool how well this seemed to have worked. Though, still stepped cautiously, just in case.

Recently, I've been seeing the light again, while walking to work in the morning. Sometimes the weather is cloudy and dull, sometimes there's a hint of a sunrise somewhere through the cloudcover. Still, within a radius from the body, the snow seemed to be reflecting light as if there was sun shining from behind me. A faint shadowless light, white with a slight yellow tint to it.

Yesterday or two days ago (lost track of time due to a 20+ hour worknight), there was a strong feeling from the town and townspeople. This feeling was familiar from the last cycle (few years of spirital circle / spiral) and yet it didn't seem to have sourced from my mind. Became a bit entrained to this feeling, altered it slightly and weather changed. Sky gradually became more clear and weather warmed up a bit.

Some evening I noticed that focus had drifted to the centre of the brain, causing the area to feel dense, floaty and quite warm.

Strange, usually I've had a lot of trouble staying awake late. Though, last night 2 yawns was enough to keep up till morning. Somehow, there was plenty of energy to keep me going .. noticed a slight decrease in the reaction speed and accuracy of this body and that's all.

At home, felt like going straight to bed. Some random shallow sleep for less than 2 hours and couldn't sleep for longer. Welcomed Mom, who's back from Spain, ate and meditated (didn't feel like sleeping) some.

Noticed a specific buzz of discomfort in the body. This might be the source for feeling clumsy or less accurate. In addition to this buzz, there was a feeling of a lot of energy flowing about.

The moment of weighing the satellite was pretty fun. "What the? Oh, you've got to be kidding me." As it turned out, it was exactly 1.000 kg. The chances of getting this number that precisely didn't seem too great.

Took a day off for change. Joined the rest of the family on Hobbit at the cinema. At some moment, I got the feeling of some trouble, in relation to the satellite. The attitude towards the satellite dropped remarkably. Called one of the guys later for status update and it turned out that a couple of things did break during the vibration and / or shock tests.

Summer school

Came back from another summer school. A lot of work, but close to no pk practice.

There was some geisting .. lights flickering, laptop doing stuff on its own. Laptop battery being full when I need it and suddenly dropping empty after that.

Some mild weather manipulation as well. And a lot of 11:11 phenomena and materialization of expectations.

Edit: Just watched episode 12 of Avatar: The Legend of Korra and burst out crying. The most emotional piece of art I've seen. The ending was so awesome. It was incredible, how detachment and meditation helped Korra.

Juniper and nettle

Drank juniper and nettle tea again yesterday evening, to purify blood and help against the acne. In addition, it also seems to clean the flow of psi. However, for me it has a couple of side-effects .. a wet dream and a pile of hunger the next day.

Meditating / sleeping while listening to music has an interesting effect. I end up staying in one place for longer than usually. Learning instruments by observing the artists or just exploring feelings and visiting places that are related.

Stepped into a "hole" again and dropped out of body while walking home. Felt pretty floaty at home too. Hm, it's warm and windy outside - maybe that's why I feel so floaty.

For the last few weeks, I've been seeing the 11:11 phenomena really often (pretty much each time I glance at the clock).

Stuff falling

Spielberg's "Taken" is pretty ingenious. Watched most of the episodes with dad during the weekend. Dad said he's beginning to understand how the minds of military generals work and why the Greys treated people like animals. I find Elle's comments quite enlightening.

Was quite tired today morning. Had a lot of trouble with yawning, eyes falling shut and what not. During one of these inconvenient moments loud noise broke loose as spoons, mugs and dishes started falling into the sink. Seemed rather strange, because the windows were barely open and there was barely any air movement in the room. Also, it had been 10 minutes or more since anyone had gone anywhere near that sink. The shelves behind me made a loud pop some seconds after that event.

Noticed that the clock was 11.11 the 2nd time I glanced at it. Also, it's August 1st. Finished a pack of cookies and when I was about to throw the paper into the garbage bin, I noticed that the "best before" date was 1/11/11.

Had a deja vu of a situation that didn't manifest again. The emotion that seemed to have caused it, came from the dreams I had today morning. I'm glad it didn't happen.

While reading Alar34's journal and after that, furniture was snapping all over the apartment.

Talked to dad about the dishes that fell into the sink at work. A moment later we were about to watch the next episode of "Taken", which happened to be called "Dropping the dishes". Stuff was still snapping loud during the film.

CFL glowing

For a short moment, I saw a part of the Compact Fluorescent Lamp (CFL) glowing yesterday evening (it was switched off). I only saw it from the corner of my eyes.

Approached it with my analytical mind, trying to figure out if it might have been the LED on my shaving machine or the headlights of a car parking. Looked at the CFL from multiple angles, but the LED didn't shine through the spiral at all. The same seemed to be the case with car lights. Moreover, the part of the bulb that glowed, was facing away from the window. The first thought that popped into mind was static electricity - these bulbs work on high voltage. Though, I hadn't been close enough for this.

Cool. It would be fun to get this consistent enough =). 

Edit: It was static electricity. The lamp seems to be amazingly sensitive to electrostatically charged objects moving around in the room.

Lately I've been watching birds flying, imagining, how flying looks & feels like. It often feels pretty surreal to look back on the road and keep walking, feeling birds flying above me. Took a nap and thought it would be fun to see and feel through a bird's body. Saw a girl walking a dog instead. <snor>. Fell asleep.

Practiced some energy manipulation before going to sleep. Gathered psi below my feet for balance and then started leaning myself forward, slowly. As I was leaning forward, a shield popped up in front of me and pushed me back. Tried to lean forward as much as possible, without falling over. It was pretty fun, but for some reason this shield didn't work when I had leaned too far .. fell to bed.


Hm, 11 *C, 11:11:00 AM at the time of writing this.

Psychic hand-made explosives

With these recent OBE attempts, I feel I've changed. A couple of days ago I felt like a lot of little pieces of the puzzle started coming together. My self-confidence has experienced a boost. Courage seems to be rising as well. It seems like there is barely any doubt left .. now I'm certain that pk is real.


Actually, I even feel I've become a bit arrogant and need to polish it so that I wouldn't hurt others by saying something off. Yesterday I made 1 mistake, today I made 4 mistakes in my behavior.


Ex minister of defense held a lecture today. In his speech, he mentioned physical, chemical and astrological weaponry. I thought I misheard it and asked what he meant by astronomical weapons. <laughter>. It turned out I had heard it correctly .. he said astrological and meant all kind of psychic attacks. Also, he mentioned that emergency service had officially ordered hundreds of water witches for detecting bombs. Cool..


Just slept this night. Practiced for OBEs in the morning. This time I simply relaxed all muscles and lied in bed, waiting. Occasionally told the body to sleep. It sometimes triggered uncontrollable movements to keep itself awake. Continued with the waiting, trying to keep the mind more-or-less silent but awake. 


A syringe construct with a sharp needle popped up. I moved it out onto the balcony and started dissolving it. It seemed to have consisted of at least 3 different layers that I had to dissolve separately. When it had dissolved, I realized that I was on the balcony, seeing my surroundings .. <startled back into body>.


Some kind of a wandering thought brought me into the living room. When I became aware that I was seeing my surroundings again, I got snapped back into body.


Tried to OBE to the Moon again, though, this attempt didn't last too long. I don't know what I saw, but it looked as if there were a wall to my right. A wall covered in / made of the same dust that was everywhere else on the surface of the Moon.


It seems that there's "too many mind" again - should meditate again sometime soon.


Realized that I had barely eaten anything for the last couple of days.

Hm, came back to my room from the kitchen and noticed that there was 11:11 on the projector clock. Also, there seems to be 11:11 on post time.