Twice today morning I noticed that I could see the wallpaper with my eyes closed.
Today morning I experienced a fail of celibacy again. A pretty clever
dream. I had a birthday. Tables covered in delicious food. Went to bed
after that. In the morning, a couple of imposters (disguised as
grandparents) started injecting false memories. Even though I managed to
prove the memories absurd, I still became confused and started
analyzing them. Some uncensored content was packed into these memories.
About a week or two ago, I suddenly realized that all food tastes really good. Potatoes, carrots, meat, milk .. all of these suddenly tasted really sweet. I can't eat chocolate anymore, one little piece of chocolate overflows the taste of sweetness. It seems I also can't eat raw onions anymore .. a few pieces made my head feel as if all sound rumbled inside the skull. I have to admit, I've become addicted to eating. Probably: focusing on enjoying the taste of the food does not improve digestion. It makes the taste of food more enjoyable.
Moreover,
food didn't digest. I could just eat lunch and not be able to sleep at
night because of the stomach being full. On the other hand, if I didn't
eat, eye sight would reduce slightly, blood circulation would slow down
and so on..
There's supposed to be 2 polarities of psi, right? Usually when this happens, I feel as if one of the polarities was dominating so that I could no longer feel the other one. I wonder how I could increase the intensity of both polarities simultaneously.
Looked at the clock, it was about 7 PM. I was starting to feel hunger, but thought that if I ate then, I wouldn't be able to sleep again. So, went for a jog before eating. Hopefully it'll digest faster now.
I'm not sure if the mind-trick experiment of radiating more heat actually works or not. Haven't been able to always reproduce the sensation. When I have, it seems to have worked sometimes.
It's interesting that before the dream, I laid in bed, listening to meditation music. Suddenly I realized I was in the bed, meditation music was no longer playing. There was a 1 - 2 hour gap in my awareness. Couldn't remember anything, which is rather strange. Even if I fall asleep, I remember the intermediary stages and I can trace it back to remember more.
ReplyDeleteIn the dream, I was aware of this gap. Due to the presence of this gap, I couldn't rule anything out, no matter how absurd it seemed. In the dream, when presented with a false memory of being drunk and getting together with some lady, I proved it absurd because I don't drink nor consume any other suspicious substances. And yet I had this gap in the continuity of awareness that I could not explain. The imposters in the dream used this as a leverage.