Uncoordinated attempts

The last few days, I have been doing chaotic pk exercises (some 10 minutes of pk on random stuff on the table). Couldn't get them to move by verifiable amounts. I tried to reduce the weight of a battery on a kitchen scale. Unfortunately, the kitchen scale kept shutting down and during the short operating time, I failed to achieve the goal. The same as usual - I could feel them moving, but I couldn't see any results or if I did, they were negligibly small. Well, I probably need some more practice before I succeed in these things.

I also tried pk stasis field on the shadow of the spinning propeller and didn't notice any difference - it slowed down just as usual. An idea came to my mind: could I slow down the propeller with my eyes closed? If I could someday do it, then I think it would help me get rid of the mind-block that's limiting my covered psi-wheel attempts..

Haven't meditated for already a week and I feel like in order to succeed and remain indifferent  to success, I have to do that as well.

It was so hot that I decided to meditate on the balcony. It was too bright for my eyes outside, so I closed them. A good gust of wind came from the left and went to the right. I opened my eyes to confirm that it was completely silent and that there wasn't any wind. Strange, I thought and continued meditating. I visualized the typical grounding exercise, directed a flow of psi through my head that felt full of blockages. Suddenly some water started coming down from the upper balcony. I opened my eyes and stood aside so that I wouldn't get hit. It was so dry and sunny outside that my first thought was the neighbors either pouring beer or pissing down their balcony. I was       surprised that the water was almost odorless - it was as if a bucket with yesterday's rain water had fallen over or something. Weird, as there was nobody up there and I couldn't hear a sound before the water started to fall. It reminded me of the strange dark water that fell in the living room on Saaremaa (see http://sussch-daweird.blogspot.com/2009/12/dark-water-from-nowhere.html).

One thing that I have tried for a few times during meditation or when walking to school: I wonder if it were possible to somehow transform sweat into something else as soon as it surfaces so that it would smell like a blossomed lilac. Usually there is a problem visualizing it - I can't remember how lilac smelled like. This time I could smell something that slightly reminded me something of lilac, but still not what I was looking for.

I also tried to form constructs that would help on digesting preservatives, pesticides and other kinds of unhealthy stuff. Based on a youtube video I found some days ago (a woman spiritualist had visited Estonia and given a lecture on light transformation or something). I considered it fluff while watching it and thus didn't add it to my favorites nor did I stuff the link into this blog - and I can't find it anymore. Anyway, she had built a matrix into her light body, by visualizing cappuccino being transformed into light. Since then, she has more-or-less eaten nothing more than a cup of cappuccino every day. While I was visualizing these constructs, I definitely started feeling better in the stomach area, but I'm a bit doubtful about any long-term effects.


During the short meditation session, I noticed that I could see with my eyes closed again (to some degree). It's probably vision through my brain analyzing sounds, as I can usually only see something similar to a depth-map (no colors, only a feeling of positioning of the objects around me). Similarly to a depth-map, my nose was brighter than the background. Usually, when I focus on my nose, I get this uneasy feeling of being able to morph the shape of my nose. This was also the case today.