Meditation on the crown

So much to post.

A few days ago, while meditating, I saw thin and yet long fingers with brownish-red skin, pinched together. This reminded me how I used to focus on the crown years ago. Visualize the same feeling, as if pinching the the cloud of consciousness, in order to better focus it into one point.

Also found that I had multiple points of focus, each on a different layer of sorts. In order to really concentrate, I need to combine all of them. Some of those layers are more difficult to affect, some of them are more chaotic by nature (causing a lot of wandering thoughts and loitering focus).

As for meditating on the crown, I remembered from some OBEs a couple of years ago that I sometimes slept with the consciousness sitting on the crown. A syllogism and got the image of a yogi meditating cross-legged on a 1000 petal lotus .. whereas on the top of the head, there was a smaller image of the yogi, meditating cross-legged on the 1000 petal lotus.

Have been seeing a lot of flashbacks again recently, too. Memories of various feelings, places, similar experiences and stuff.

I've noticed a sort of flickering of lights on sunlight. Might be birds, is it now? From the balcony, it might very well be a seagull flying past, but not on the streets (shadow is a lot smaller, compared to the area in sight). Don't know what to think about this one. Occasionally there have been flashes of white light as well.

Felt exhausted. Focused on the crown for a minute or two and feeling revived again. The crown woke up heart chakra as well. Feeling a bit tensed up right now, though.