PK wave's over

=P I guess the wave of PK has passed again - hardly managed to even twitch the psi-wheel today. Tried it for 30 minutes in the morning and 30 minutes in the evening with no progress. Should start practicing something else again..


I ate late and had to meditate for almost an hour before going to sleep. I realized that I had also done meditating wrong - it has more meaning if I meditate on something (ask myself a question or investigate a feeling or visualize something). Most of the time, I had just meditated because of the feeling of cleanliness after the meditation session. No wonder it had been boring to meditate this way.


When I started to meditate, I thought I would first make my mind clear of thoughts and then ask the question ("How could I overcome my mindblocks?"), but I just got the feeling that I should ask it right away. As I received no answer, I repeated it a few times and then started visualizing the question. I visualized mindblocks as steps that exponentially increased in height so that the final mindblocks were like cliffs. I could step over the first mindblocks, but as they became higher, I had to jump and then levitate to overcome them. The last mindblock I had visualized infinitely high and the only way to get over it was to teleport to the top. Once at the top, a question popped into my mind: "When I'm at infinity, how can I even see what's down where I came from?" I received a feeling as if I have already experienced this and that this isn't a problem, as the universe is not linear. It seemed as if I remembered having seen / felt things with infinitely large and infinitely small distances from each other.


I don't know, if I got an answer to the question I wanted to ask or not and even if I did, I didn't understand how the answer was related to the question.


While I was meditating, I suddenly started to leak psi in all directions. With my eyes closed, I saw psi leaking as if I were burning in bluish white flames. I have sometimes leaked some psi on purpose, but this time it was spontaneous and way stronger than before. It lasted for maybe 10 seconds and then stopped. After that I felt incredibly lighter, cleaner and more peaceful. Furthermore, usually when I have leaked psi on purpose, I feel tired afterwards, but this was not the case this time - I leaked a lot more than usually and I didn't feel being tired at all.


Having gone to bed, I sweat a lot .. spring with its features.. (probably caught some cold the previous week).