Losing control

Had a test in the morning. Went home more-or-less right after that. Had to make a lengthy practical protocol in MathCad real quick. We (chatted with a schoolmate) were surprised how fast it was (~10 pages of protocol in just 2 hours). Then I studied for the next practical - actually I couldn't concentrate on it very well anymore.

Anyway, the point is that the rest of the day went by just by learning for the ELMAG test on 09.12.09. So, I didn't have enough time to practice psionics and it had some nasty side-effects.

The first and most frequent side-effect was that I couldn't sleep very well and after 4 hours of insufficient sleep, I no longer felt tired. In this half-dreamy state I noticed that my body had been practicing the whole time - I was subconsciously messing around with psi cushions in my bed.

I then tried to light the lamp in my room. I visualized a light bulb lighting up in the lamp in my room. My focus along with some awesome psi pressure shattered the light bulb. I heard a really terrified high-pitch scream "Stop it!" I tried to pick up the shattered pieces of glass and fix the lamp again, but whenever I got it fixed, it shattered again and I felt that girl, who screamed, becoming even more terrified.

It wasn't what I had wanted at all. I tried to fix the bulb one more time and managed to stop myself from blowing it up again. I woke myself up from the half-dream state and started calming myself down. I was surprised that even though my mother and sister were awake (it was 4.30 AM already), they didn't seem to have heard anything. So, I guess that it was just a dream that gave me an Akira-like feeling that seemed real.

I really felt I couldn't control myself. Actually, now that I'm trying to remember it more, I noticed that before going to sleep I saw the laptop screen morph for a second. The same kind of morphing was happening all around me while I was in the half-dream state - just like in Akira (actually, too much like Akira).

After waking up, it occurred to me that I visualized the wrong kind of lamp - I have an economical bulb instead of the ordinary light bulb I was trying to manipulate.