Felt quite tired, slept for a couple of times and then started studying for an upcoming test.
Couldn't understand much of what I had written there in the lectures. Anyway, at some point, my mind was overcome in calmness and the only thoughts that were wandering were about the text I was reading. During reading, I occasionally made a few short pauses to think about it, but ended up playing around with pk on the conspectus pages without any thoughts.
While going to the bathroom, I passed by the mirror and I was a bit surprised how well I could feel myself through my reflection in the mirror. I wondered if that's why they consider meditation in front of a mirror being dangerous without the presence of a guru.
I came back and opened the balcony window to let in some fresh air. Thought I could attempt pk on the door via wind manipulation instead of the direct manipulation that I usually practice. The door only budged a little in the intended directions. While looking at the door, I noticed I could see psi rising on the edge of the door. Closed the door manually.
Took a few short attempts on other objects as well and I could see psi rising off a chair, psi moving around on the floor just above the carpet. It looked the same - like a totally transparent smoke that stands out from dark background as if it were slightly glowing. On a bright background it appears as a pattern of brighter and darker areas (just like some kind of a smoke).
Meditated some and thought it would be fun to attempt levitation again (it's been a while since I last tried it). Well, I didn't succeed in lifting off, but something was different from previous times. I developed a feeling that I haven't felt before - it's not the regular feeling of being lifted (though, it's difficult to describe). When I focused on the feeling, it got stronger and I started having the feeling of knowing I would succeed in this. I chickened out aka became too excited and lost the emptiness of my mind.
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